28.1.10

who's out there?

I'm always curious as to who reads my blog or if anyone does at all. I have a few followers (but even I don't read all the blogs I'm a follower of) and my blog has been 'shared' a couple of times but all this means nothing to me. 
Am I writing to anyone? 
Or am I the only person who reads my blog? 
That's right, I read my own blog.
Just kidding.
No I'm not
Yes I am.
No I'm not.
Just kidding.

eat your words!


Lindsay and I just spent half an hour spelling out rude phrases with alphabet shaped pretzels. 
This was one of the kinder ones.
Here's to dead days at the office and also playing with your food.

Redbull 3 style at the Commodore tonight.
Holla!

27.1.10

storm before the calm

I drank some tea,
I ate some curry,
I did a crossword,
I got some fresh air,
I talked to my dad briefly,
I listened to Devo,
And now I feel better.

Feel free to approach the lion.

the good, the bad and the ugly

I'm in a real stink today.
I'm not sure why.
I don't like it.

I forgot what it feels like to be in a really bad mood. It has to be one of the worst feelings in the world; which reminds me, Tara Hare and I made a list of the "worst" feelings in the world a few months ago on the bus and I still need to post it.
Watch for it.
Also, today, watch out for me. I'm on a path of destruction.
Today, I hate everything.

I think I need some fresh air.
On the upside, I'm listening to RJD2's new album. It's pretty great.

22.1.10

Today, for a lil birthday celebration, Tara and I are going to the Vancouver Aquarium.
Sharks are pretty cool.

january 22nd, 2005, edinburgh, scotland

Aging train

Yesterday was a day for lasts and today a day for firsts.

Yesterday was my last day of work at Free Spirit; yesterday was my last day in York where I have been living and working for the past two months. Last night I packed my bags and hopped on a train in York when I was 19; I disembarked that train in Edinburgh when I was 20.
Today is my birthday.
Today is my New Years day.
Today is when I consider my slate wiped clean.
Today I can officially account anything stupid done previously, to the fact that I was 19.
That is, until I do something else.
Today, I woke-up feeling great to be alive because today is my day.

Then I shaved my legs.

While sitting on the train, watching myself age before my eyes; I realised how much the ride represented my life. I am always getting older. I am now ten seconds older than I was when I wrote that last sentence.

And now that.

And so on.

I will always be older when I step off the train than I was when I embarked but there is only one day a year to mark this.

One day a year when you realise, "Shit, I'm getting old."

We act as if it happened with a bang.

While really it's been happening it all along.

But despite all this, January 22nd is, and always will be my day

(quirky fact: January 22nd is also National Popcorn day...don't ask me how I know this)

and I love it.

Today is wonderful.
Today is beautiful.
Today will be great.
It better be, or let me tell you, there will be hell to pay.

Because, today is my day, and nobody is going to take that away from me.

18.1.10

almost vintage

I've always had an affinity for anything old. Objects that, when held in your hands, transport you back to days of yore and invoke you to conjure up an image of their original owner and use; items that have, today, become obsolete.

I'm not sure what it is about these relics that gets me so excited, but I've always been this way. When I was young, I loved old buildings, grave sites, cars, anything that I was not familiar with. My curiosity went even further back than what would be referred to as 'vintage' and into ancient times -mummies, tombs, clothing, scripts, any artifacts of extinct civilisations; anything that even resembled something old. These always sparked an interest and I wanted to know anything there was to about them. I was thirsty for knowledge of anything from what I referred to as "the olden days". My mum used to suggest that I should be an archaeologist when I "grew up" and I held that idea in my mind for years, even looking into (for about thirty seconds) anthropology as a post secondary study.

I think my interest in the more recent past was brought on by my mother's own fondness for articles from another, earlier life, be it her own or someone else's. For as long as I can remember, she's been making trips to the local second hand store and coming home with tokens from another time and I relished in these trinkets, taking them and turning them over and over in my hands conjuring up those aforementioned images. She would bring vintage dish sets, vases, art deco alarm clocks, lamps, and furniture. She has a collection of milk jugs around the kitchen window sills and a shelf dedicated to antique hand painted tea cups and saucers. When I was young, I'm not sure what she did with these collectibles; I think she may have saved them all for gifts but in later years she began selling them on ebay for pocket change.

Not only does Yvonne love finding these rarities, but she has a knack for it; an eye like I've never seen. I always thought she should be a buyer for some high end antique store, or be her own shop keeper, but she is adamant that there isn't any money in it, and it's just a hobby. --I've seen the price they charge in Vancouver antique stores and I believe she could definitely eke out a living but whatever--

This is one of the only traits that was passed down to me from my mother (I've always tended more towards the paternal side of my bloodline, whether by choice or genetics, I'm not sure.) and we spend hours geeking out over pieces of furniture, bakelite, fiestaware and vintage jewelry. Although I've been blessed with her love of anything from the past, I have not been gifted with her eye and don't take to the thrift store with a vengeance, exiting with a new living room. The two things I have taken to collecting though, are aprons (little known fact) and brooches and since I can remember, I've been envisioning my dream house. It would have hard wood and tile floors, an enclosed front porch (or solarium), large windows, a fire place, and be decked out in vintage, right down to the fixtures. At this moment in time, this seems to be every hipster's Eden, but I like to think my dream is a little more organic due to the fact that this has been a life long aspiration.

A few years ago, I learned that anything older than 25 years is considered vintage. I will be 25 on Friday. This is weird to me. 25 was always how old other people were. Obviously any age you are not is the age of another, but 25 always seemed to me that it would never come. Now it's knocking on my door and I don't have a career, a husband or a brood of children as I always assumed I would. Don't get me wrong; I'm not complaining, I've always loved getting older but I've learned that there is no way you can know where you will be by a certain age. You've just gotta roll with the punches. 25 is an age I always looked forward to for whatever reason. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I now can be categorised with these treasures I hold so dear because on Friday, I will be vintage and that's kind of cool.

11.1.10

my resolutions a few days late...

On my NYE, only two resolutions were made. I try not to make a habit of making the yearly promises of self improvement; the only time I've actually done so was two years ago, when I vowed to stop riding escalators or if unavoidable, to at least walk them. I've had a serious hate on for escalators for quite some time. Elevators too are not on my list of favorite things. I blame escalators and Mcdonalds for obesity. The fact that people can't walk up a set of stairs just proves how lazy we have become as a society.

When I did my Canada World Youth exchange, before the Cubans came to Canada, they had to learn how to use escalators and were put on some sort of simulator in Havana. Before they got off the airplane in Toronto, they had never seen the real deal before.

I think secretly, my escalator promise was a way of resoluting to try and lose weight without actually vocalizing this wish (I sometimes tend to revolt against pop culture or the norm while harbouring a secret desire to be just like everyone else. Only sometimes though.) The only time since then that I've been forced to ride the "lazy staircase" was when I broke my shoulder snowboarding shortly after making said resolution and I decided it was probably a better idea to swallow my pride than to wind up with a second broken limb or worse yet, a bruised ego.

Since I'd been so diligent in sticking to my vow for the past two years, I decided that this year I would take a leap of faith (in myself), and make two resolutions:

1).write more letters (specifically hand written but I also get points for emails)

and

2).stop being judgemental (about others and also, myself)

Both of these are hard for me to do. I don't actually remember the last time I mailed something out that wasn't a bill and even that has now been made accessible online therefore furthering the redundancy of the written word and the postage stamp alike. With tools like myspace and now the ever popular (and rising) facebook and twitter (the latter of which I do not subscribe, thank you very much)have given us the resources to know what every person we ever wanted to know anything about is up to at any given moment therefore TKOing the email all together. What do you write to someone you already know everything about and that knows everything about you? Nothing is left up to the imagination anymore. A few years ago, my friends and I used to email each other multiple times a day; like passing notes in class except this was post graduation and we were all who knows where in the world. We would send each other jokes, and anecdotes and photos of out latest outfits. Now with the
to-the-second updates provided by online networking tools, this has been deemed unnecessary. The only emails I receive these days are from Sephora, telling me about the new deals I can get on make up I can't afford and CWY alumni updating me on what the orgnisation is doing for the world. (Oh, and my mother when I don't answer her succession of phone calls). The one person from whom receive the occasional email and who I look forward to hearing from is my nearly 98 year old grandfather who, once upon a time, used to send me hand written letters in the mail.

If I were truly going to hold on tight and take the power back, I would cancel my facebook account, cut myself off from the virtual world, and carry around an address book but I am just as much of a tool as the next person and can't bring myself to take such drastic measures. I will, however, start with my pal Monica who is in PEI. I'll start this week. I may send her only one line notes. I may send her near novels. I may only send her a photograph. But the feeling you get when you receive something in the mail with a hand written address on the envelop is incomparable to anything else. The content doesn't matter as much as you'd think.

Being judgemental is a really hard habit to break. Giving people a chance is something I have a hard time with. I'm too quick to form opinions and it sometimes takes me a while to push myself to look past these first judgements (although, call it intuition, call it narrow mindedness, but I have found that nine times out of ten, I am correct). I'm not sure why it is that I let these first impressions take hold of me. Somebody doesn't even have to utter a word and I have an image of who they are or must be and I need to stop thinking in this fashion. Not only do I need to stop jumping to opinions about others, but I need to stop judging myself. I need to take it easy on everyone.

Sigh. All this seems to be easier said than done.

But, to be honest, I'm not going to do anything about any of it at this moment because it is past midnight and I work in the morning.

So, happy new years to all y'all, 11 days in.

Good luck with sticking to your resolutions like washing your bedding regularly. Clean sheets are the stuff dreams are made of.

night.
XOXO
gossip girl

3.1.10

saturday night

Here's to drunken blogging and binge eating!

drunken musings

Why is it that every hot dog I eat tastes like THE BEST hot dog I've ever had in my life?

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