tear jerker

I was just the recipient of the saddest email ever received from one's 97 year old grandfather.

Hi Mikhaila , nice to here from you . Brent took me to the doctor's this morning . When I got back I had my lunch and after lunch I was so tired that I lay down for a nap . That is the first time I have ever had an afternoon nap . My brother Verne had an afternoon nap years ago . I still am a bit tired , will probably go to bed early tonight .

Hope you have fun with your friend , good friends are hard to come by .

Happy to hear from you any old time .

Much love , Poppa

I've been left teary eyed and realising that my Poppa is not going to be around for much longer. I've always just assumed he was immortal. But he's not. His brother Verne died during an afternoon nap, and now he fears he too will pass this way. I have to say, it wouldn't be the worst, but I'd rather he be happy than expecting what may be coming. It's going to be really difficult when Poppa passes. It's going to bring up a whole other realm of emotions none of us will have really experienced before. It's going to force us to finally deal with, also, the death of my Grandmother. My Grandma died 8 years ago while retrieving something from the back of her car, when it slipped out of park and knocked her down. I know I, personally, have yet to come to terms with this, and I feel that goes for the rest of my family as well.

Today was a stressful day at the office (the non busy-ness of the rest of the week finally caught up to us) and now with this email, I'm finding it a little bit difficult to feel excited for the weekend even with a visit from Kate Swaney and a possible hang out with a new friend to look forward to. On top of these potentially exciting events, my roommate just left for two weeks to Mexico. I should be screaming from the rafters. I love her, but, it'll be nice to be able to walk around naked. Oh well. As soon as I get home to a cooked meal, I'll be able to process everything.

Tonight I think I'm going to clean my apartment and spend some much needed time by myself (that is unless a certain someone decides that their schedule isn't too busy for me this evening. You know who you are. I think.). Maybe start a new book or watch a movie. Maybe I'll write. Or maybe I'll just sleep. In any case, my next decision is, what to listen to while I tidy?

Happy weekend.