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What do you do when you have feelings for someone?
You have feelings for them, and you're almost certain that they return those feelings.
All the signs are there.
Or so you think.
Then they decide you should just be friends and you have no choice but to agree; after all, in the immortal words of Bonnie Raitt, "you can't make your heart feel something it won't".
You think that being friends might be okay.
You enjoy each other's company and have the same sense of humour, but you can't stop feelings and secretly hope that maybe, just maybe there might still be a chance.

Then, WHAM, you learn that they've started seeing someone else.
Maybe even before they decided to make your relationship platonic.

What do you do then?
Your insides hurt.
You feel as though you've been punched in the gut.
Your head spins and all you can think about is what they might be doing at this moment and why it isn't you.
You think it's stupid to feel this way because you haven't known them for that long but, again, you can't help feelings.

What do you do, when all you want is to act like a crazy person; write angry emails; show up on their corner; sabbotage this new person and do other things that make you wonder who you are?

As if this may make them see the light.
Do you sit back and pretend like everything is okay?
Do you take it like a (man)?
Do you tell them how you feel?
Or do you distance yourself for a while to be fair to yourself and also because you value thier friendship?

I'm not entirely sure why I'm asking advice. Or who I'm asking advice from.
Is anybody even out there?

Besides, I already know what I'm going to do.

So, if you read this (you know who you are), then you understand why I'm being distant and maybe a little weird. Give it time and we'll be sending each other quirky message soon enough and maybe hitting the pow but until then, I just need a little time and a little Bonnie Raitt.